Mental Junkyard

by Caynug

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Mental Junkyard Music Video:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=PCOOu9MHDJg

I Wish I Still Knew You Music Video:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=QBvGRkYUZZk

I can't really explain what I've been through in the process of writing this whole album. It's been 4 long years, I moved 4 times since I began writing this album. Several times through the writing process I've been in phases of trying to understand why I am doing all of this and if it would not be better to just change and do other things with my life, things that are easier. Over time I realized that that was often some sort of fight or flight response and I was weak and to scared to be hurt because this just means and always ment the world to me.

Working on this album I unearthed all that was buried in me, I befriended my past and everything you would normally call "bad times". So to say I met with my triumph, I also met with my disaster and accepted both just the way they are to healthily move on. It was never easy at all.

This is music from the bottom of my heart, my grip on life, often the last safe place for my mind, the key to my mind, my heart and what I hold most dearly close to me. Life tested me over and over again, many times in life outside circumstances and long built up toxic experiences tried to take it away from me and tested me deep down to my inner core.

I am happy to share my art with all of you and I hope you download/stream/put it all in your car stereo USB stick. Carry me with you if you like what you hear, that would mean the world to me.

Thank you for being here to listen and read, it's been an tremendous amount of work to get here and I believe everyone is capable of chasing after his dreams. Even if you don't have a clear direction of them, you mostly know which step to take to get closer to yourself and your dreams - you are worth it.

If you are unsure and need an ear or advice, send me a message. I am happy to listen to your story and inspiration.

Still reading? I love you.
Shine through, dont let the hate slow you down.

Thank you for being here

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released December 21, 2018

Art: Erik Kirchner (erikkirchner.com)
Guest background vocals on "The Pillars" by my friend: Svilen Viktorov
Guest Solo part on "Crave For New Colours" by my friend: Jan Dewald

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Picture a guy in a home music studio all alone going crazy with ideas and production
That's pretty much me
Caynug is a one man band consisting of me alone, it's my musical outlet.

I mash sounds, genres, I experiment, write, play, record, produce and engineer everything in caynug

This is music from the bottom of my heart, my grip on life, often the last safe place for my mind and I hope you enjoy
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Track Name: Outlive The Bruises
Placing dreams before me
As if theyre easy to obtain
Keeping me striving day after day
Hoping my work is not in vain
Track Name: I Wish I Still Knew You
Times have changed
I wish I still knew you
You are my blood, my friend
And I tried, to help you but you would not listen
you faded away

You faded away
You faded away

Wasting a precious life
You faded away
Far away
It's all in your hands
It's all in your hands

Times have changed
I wish I still knew you
You are my blood
My friend

Times have changed
I wish I still knew you
You are my blood
My friend

Hollowing through the years
Paradise, somewhere else
Distance, my closest friend

And I, look into your eyes
And I, see your face fade away

Fade away
Fade away
Fade away
Fade away
Right, right, right, right, aaah

So I still cry
And you dont know why
So I still cry
And you dont know why

And yet I still try
And I dont know why
And yet I still try
And you dont know why
Track Name: Mental Junkyard
All awake with an clouded mind and broken heart
Leading misery into your temple
And leaving it there
to spread and absorb your mind
All in pain with an crowded mind
The only solution is to tear apart the junkyard

It’s hard to find
Peace of mind
So much time is passing by
Blinded by every moment
Living and existing to degenerate we are making this mess

It’s hard to find
Peace of mind
So much time is passing by
Blinded by every moment
Living and existing to degenerate we are making this mess

It’s hard to find
Peace of mind
So much time is passing by
Blinded by every moment
We are losing our minds
Track Name: Disturbing World
I've seen it all
Your disturbing world
I don't want to know
I'm already there

I've seen it all
Your disturbing world
I don't want to know
I'm already there

Let it go
Would you let it go?!

I've seen it all
Your disturbing world
I don't want to know
I'm already there

I've seen it all
Your disturbing world
I don't want to know
I'm already there

Let it go

I've seen it all
Your disturbing world
I don't want to know
I'm already there

I've seen it all
Your disturbing world
I don't want to know
I'm already there
Track Name: The Pillars
Just a man who’s exhausted
nothing left but his thoughts
The blisters which afflict him on his slowly swelling toes
The headaches, unfullfilled dreams and many other woes

Just a man
Nothing left
These burdens are pulling you down
Suffocating your dreams

We change time for money
Live a life in hurry
Inner peace for exhaustion
Live a life in distortion

We change time for money
Live a life in hurry
Inner peace for exhaustion
Live a life in distortion

Clench on the dream that times gonna change
Work for the greedy fulfill their crimes

Run

The pillars of frustration
to let others have control

The pillars of dissatifaction
smother your own little soul

The pillars of frustration
to let others have control

The pillars of dissatifaction
smother your own little soul

Clench on the dream that times gonna change
Work for the greedy fulfill their crimes
Open their window for the falling rain they bring
Bow down to their vision, a perfect living thing

We change time for money
Live a life in hurry
Inner peace for exhaustion
Live a life in distortion

We change time for money
Live a life in hurry
Inner peace for exhaustion
Live a life in distortion
Track Name: Crave For New Colours
Reach out and shift my view
Track Name: Stay Sane
I don't want to feel like this
I can't stay sane
I can't stay sane
I can't stay sane
I don't to stay sane

Well I don't want to feel like this
I don't want to feel like this
I don't want to feel like this
So fuck off
Track Name: Not In Vain
I am torn and hurt
Thrown around in dirt because of everyones selfishness
I can’t please everyone,
Im in the middle and torn on all fronts

I do feel lonely in this circle
Step in, make me feel understood
Help me pick up these shards
I let you inside

Cant you feel it’s burning down?
Cant you see the everlasting outcome?
These worlds colliding
My consciousness is fading

I do feel lonely in this circle
Step in, make me feel understood
Help me pick up these shards
I let you inside

When will this end?
When will this end?
When will this end?
I'm torn and hurt
When will this end?
Thrown around in dirt

I question myself whats left?
A closed book full of torn pages
Hard to open and hard to close
Hard to open and hard to close
Hard to open and hard to close

I am torn and hurt
Thrown around in dirt because of everyones selfishness

Can't you feel it burning down
In slow and enduring pain I suffer

When will this end?
I'm torn and hurt
When will this end?
Thrown around in dirt

When will this end?
The heartache won't go away
When will this end?
I'm already completly disturbed

Theres so much I would like to say
So many times i’ve been hurt and now I scream in pain
The heartache wont go away
All the things I have witnessed, they make me decay
Im struggling to survive in this mess day by day
Track Name: Meet With Triumph And Disaster
Shine,
through time
Awake
inside

Awake, inside
Spread your wings
Wide


Shine through time
meet with Triumph and Disaster
Slumber in, its endless gloom
Feel the butchers broom

Shine through time
meet the illustration and yourself
Rest in the endless gloom
Feel the butchers broom

Tell me not, in mournful numbers,
Life is but an empty dream!
For the soul is dead that slumbers,
And things are not what they seem

Well life is present, life is earnest
And the grave is not its goal

Wake up
Don't let the hate slow you down

Wake up
Don't let the hate slow you down
It's your time now

Its your time now

I haven't felt so free for a long time
This empty husk seems to have vanished
These bright colours, I almost forgot
The beauty of things still to come
Track Name: Let Me Burn
So powerless and insecure
I can't stay of that im sure
You wait till I swallow my
Life and turn into you

I won't turn
Let me burn
I won't turn

Let me burn
I won't turn
Let me burn
I won't turn

If this is what defines us I don't want to be one of us
If this is what defines us I don't want to be one of us anymore
If this is what defines us I don't want to be one of us
If this is what defines us I don't want to be one of us anymore

If this is what defines us I don't want to be one of us
If this is what defines us I don't want to be one of us anymore

Anymore

You don't get it

A barrier which sets us apart
A cold breeze through your mind
A barrier which sets us apart
A cold breeze through your mind

You don't get it
Track Name: Time Flies Shit Stays
I see how the time flies and the shit stays
My life dies, whatever stays
Well these days I don't give a shit
Well these days take some other ways

I see how the time flies and the shit stays
My life dies, whatever stays
Well these days I don't give a shit
Well these days take some other ways

time flies and the shit stays
My life dies, whatever stays
Well these days I don't give a shit
Well these days take some other ways

People talking shit, people talking whack
None of these people have got any respect
I'm talking to myself and im talking to him
Well none of your business there's nothing to see brah

Hey little man, ask me what I wanna be
Hey grown whatcha wanna be wanna be
I want to be someone, someone like you
But it's to late
FUCK

I'm waiting for something to change
But nothing
Cause im waiting in this maze
And nothing
Get over to the goal get your ass done
Break off your mind kick the ball get a hole in one
Live your own damn life
Get up and live your own damn life

Live your own damn life
Live your own damn life

I see how the time flies and the shit stays
My life dies, whatever stays
Well these days I don't give a shit
Well these days take some other ways

I see how the time flies and the shit stays
My life dies, whatever stays
Well these days I don't give a shit
Well these days take some other ways

I don't give a shit
Take some other ways

I don't give a shit
Take some other ways
Track Name: Prodigous Umbrage
You stay far away

A constant influx of delusion
Portrayed by you, as solution
Taking the weak, the hopelessness
A long term destruction of the ego consciousness

Stay far away from me
Stay far away from us all

I’ve been affected and the people around me
My eyes were shut and I was blinded
You took advantage of my kindhearted soul
I tripped directly into your trap hole

Stay far away from me
Stay far away from us all

Why do I have to regret what I believed in
It was so fake
Destroyer of all I hold sacred
Tainted flood over the landscape
Why would you hate on me?
Why inflict pain to someone like me?
Why? Why?

Why?!

You don't deserve a word from me
There is no place for people like you
You turn blood into thick hatred
You take a stab at my mental health
It was not worth it for fucks sake
Why have you made me feel this way
Why have you made me feel this way
Feel this way
Why have you made me feel this way

Fake people
Fake minds
Fake decissions
Fake alliance
Fake words
Fake thoughts
Fake actions
Fake world

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