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Mental Junkyard

by Caynug

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David De Garie-Lamanque
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David De Garie-Lamanque This man is a musical genius! He takes the best elements of Korn, Meshuggah and Nine Inch Nails and super intense atmospheric prog metal and even trap metal somehow makes it work!
paulabennett13
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paulabennett13 Such an amazing album. A journey through one's trials, tribulations, ups, downs, the inner and the outer self. A bit dark, a bit atmospheric, a slip into the deep well of self that we all should delve as individuals. This albums sheds light into the darkness and exposes the thing we all should embrace, ourselves. Take a listen for yourself and I hope are richer from the experience.
Jacinth David
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Jacinth David Discovered him on Daniel Tompkins' twitch stream. Very impressive album for something made by one person in his bedroom
bérna
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bérna Easily one the best releases of 2018 Favorite track: Meet With Triumph And Disaster.
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1.
Placing dreams before me As if theyre easy to obtain Keeping me striving day after day Hoping my work is not in vain
2.
Times have changed I wish I still knew you You are my blood, my friend And I tried, to help you but you would not listen You faded away You faded away You faded away Wasting a precious life You faded away Far away It's all in your hands It's all in your hands Times have changed I wish I still knew you You are my blood My friend Times have changed I wish I still knew you You are my blood My friend Hollowing through the years Paradise, somewhere else Distance, my closest friend And I, look into your eyes And I, see your face fade away Fade away Fade away Fade away Fade away Right, right, right, right, aaah So I still cry And you dont know why And yet I still try And I dont know why And yet I still try And you dont know why Why I still try Why I still try Why, why, why, why
3.
All awake with an clouded mind and broken heart Leading misery into your temple And leaving it there to spread and absorb your mind All in pain with an crowded mind The only solution is to tear apart the junkyard It’s hard to find Peace of mind So much time is passing by Blinded by every moment Living and existing to degenerate we are making this mess It’s hard to find Peace of mind So much time is passing by Blinded by every moment Living and existing to degenerate we are making this mess It’s hard to find Peace of mind So much time is passing by Blinded by every moment We are losing our minds
4.
I've seen it all Your disturbing world I don't want to know I'm already there I've seen it all Your disturbing world I don't want to know I'm already there Let it go Would you let it go?! I've seen it all Your disturbing world I don't want to know I'm already there I've seen it all Your disturbing world I don't want to know I'm already there Let it go I've seen it all Your disturbing world I don't want to know I'm already there I've seen it all Your disturbing world I don't want to know I'm already there
5.
The Pillars 05:57
Just a man who’s exhausted nothing left but his thoughts The blisters which afflict him on his slowly swelling toes The headaches, unfullfilled dreams and many other woes Just a man Nothing left These burdens are pulling you down Suffocating your dreams We change time for money Live a life in hurry Inner peace for exhaustion Live a life in distortion We change time for money Live a life in hurry Inner peace for exhaustion Live a life in distortion Clench on the dream that times gonna change Work for the greedy fulfill their crimes Run The pillars of frustration to let others have control The pillars of dissatifaction smother your own little soul The pillars of frustration to let others have control The pillars of dissatifaction smother your own little soul Clench on the dream that times gonna change Work for the greedy fulfill their crimes Open their window for the falling rain they bring Bow down to their vision, a perfect living thing We change time for money Live a life in hurry Inner peace for exhaustion Live a life in distortion We change time for money Live a life in hurry Inner peace for exhaustion Live a life in distortion
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Reach out and shift my view
8.
Intermission 02:07
9.
Stay Sane 01:30
I don't want to feel like this I can't stay sane I can't stay sane I can't stay sane I don't want to stay sane Well I don't want to feel like this I don't want to feel like this I don't want to feel like this So fuck off
10.
Not In Vain 08:06
I am torn and hurt Thrown around in dirt because of everyones selfishness I can’t please everyone, Im in the middle and torn on all fronts I do feel lonely in this circle Step in, make me feel understood Help me pick up these shards I let you inside Cant you feel it’s burning down? Cant you see the everlasting outcome? These worlds colliding My consciousness is fading I do feel lonely in this circle Step in, make me feel understood Help me pick up these shards I let you inside When will this end? When will this end? When will this end? I'm torn and hurt When will this end? Thrown around in dirt I question myself whats left? A closed book full of torn pages Hard to open and hard to close Hard to open and hard to close Hard to open and hard to close I am torn and hurt Thrown around in dirt because of everyones selfishness Can't you feel it burning down In slow and enduring pain I suffer When will this end? I'm torn and hurt When will this end? Thrown around in dirt When will this end? The heartache won't go away When will this end? I'm already completly disturbed Theres so much I would like to say So many times i’ve been hurt and now I scream in pain The heartache wont go away All the things I have witnessed, they make me decay Im struggling to survive in this mess day by day
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12.
Shine, through time Awake inside Awake, inside Spread your wings Wide Shine through time meet with Triumph and Disaster Slumber in, its endless gloom Feel the butchers broom Shine through time meet the illustration and yourself Rest in the endless gloom Feel the butchers broom Tell me not, in mournful numbers, Life is but an empty dream! For the soul is dead that slumbers, And things are not what they seem Well life is present, life is earnest And the grave is not its goal Wake up Don't let the hate slow you down Wake up Don't let the hate slow you down It's your time now Its your time now I haven't felt so free for a long time This empty husk seems to have vanished These bright colours, I almost forgot The beauty of things still to come
13.
Let Me Burn 03:57
So powerless and insecure I can't stay of that im sure You wait till I swallow my Life and turn into you I won't turn Let me burn I won't turn Let me burn I won't turn Let me burn I won't turn If this is what defines us I don't want to be one of us If this is what defines us I don't want to be one of us anymore If this is what defines us I don't want to be one of us If this is what defines us I don't want to be one of us anymore If this is what defines us I don't want to be one of us If this is what defines us I don't want to be one of us anymore Anymore You don't get it A barrier which sets us apart A cold breeze through your mind A barrier which sets us apart A cold breeze through your mind You don't get it
14.
I see how the time flies and the shit stays My life dies, whatever stays Well these days I don't give a shit Well these days take some other ways I see how the time flies and the shit stays My life dies, whatever stays Well these days I don't give a shit Well these days take some other ways time flies and the shit stays My life dies, whatever stays Well these days I don't give a shit Well these days take some other ways People talking shit, people talking whack None of these people have got any respect I'm talking to myself and im talking to him Well none of your business there's nothing to see brah Hey little man, ask me what I wanna be Hey grown whatcha wanna be wanna be I want to be someone, someone like you But it's to late FUCK I'm waiting for something to change But nothing Cause im waiting in this maze And nothing Get over to the goal get your ass done Break off your mind kick the ball get a hole in one Live your own damn life Get up and live your own damn life Live your own damn life Live your own damn life I see how the time flies and the shit stays My life dies, whatever stays Well these days I don't give a shit Well these days take some other ways I see how the time flies and the shit stays My life dies, whatever stays Well these days I don't give a shit Well these days take some other ways I don't give a shit Take some other ways I don't give a shit Take some other ways
15.
You stay far away A constant influx of delusion Portrayed by you, as solution Taking the weak, the hopelessness A long term destruction of the ego consciousness Stay far away from me Stay far away from us all I’ve been affected and the people around me My eyes were shut and I was blinded You took advantage of my kindhearted soul I tripped directly into your trap hole Stay far away from me Stay far away from us all Why do I have to regret what I believed in It was so fake Destroyer of all I hold sacred Tainted flood over the landscape Why would you hate on me? Why inflict pain to someone like me? Why? Why? Why?! You don't deserve a word from me There is no place for people like you You turn blood into thick hatred You take a stab at my mental health It was not worth it for fucks sake Why have you made me feel this way Why have you made me feel this way Feel this way Why have you made me feel this way Fake people Fake minds Fake decissions Fake alliance Fake words Fake thoughts Fake actions Fake world
16.
Spiral 02:06

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All streaming services:
lnkfi.re/mentaljunkyard

The Pillars Music Video:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=4x1VHbXvinw

Mental Junkyard Music Video:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=PCOOu9MHDJg

I Wish I Still Knew You Music Video:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=QBvGRkYUZZk

Spiral Music Video:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q4NnrVkZmSY

Stay Sane Music Video:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=dJFawAUnNDw

I can't really explain what I've been through in the process of writing this whole album. It's been 4 long years, I moved 4 times since I began writing this album. Several times through the writing process I've been in phases of trying to understand why I am doing all of this and if it would not be better to just change and do other things with my life, things that are easier. Over time I realized that that was often some sort of fight or flight response and I was weak and to scared to be hurt because this just means and always ment the world to me.

Working on this album I unearthed all that was buried in me, I befriended my past and everything you would normally call "bad times". So to say I met with my triumph, I also met with my disaster and accepted both just the way they are to healthily move on. It was never easy at all.

This is music from the bottom of my heart, my grip on life, often the last safe place for my mind, the key to my mind, my heart and what I hold most dearly close to me. Life tested me over and over again, many times in life outside circumstances and long built up toxic experiences tried to take it away from me and tested me deep down to my inner core.

I am happy to share my art with all of you and I hope you download/stream/put it all in your car stereo USB stick. Carry me with you if you like what you hear, that would mean the world to me.

Thank you for being here to listen and read, it's been an tremendous amount of work to get here and I believe everyone is capable of chasing after his dreams. Even if you don't have a clear direction of them, you mostly know which step to take to get closer to yourself and your dreams - you are worth it.

If you are unsure and need an ear or advice, send me a message. I am happy to listen to your story and inspiration.

Still reading? I love you.
Shine through, dont let the hate slow you down.

Thank you for being here

credits

released December 21, 2018

Art: Erik Kirchner (erikkirchner.com)
Guest background vocals on "The Pillars" by my friend: Svilen Viktorov
Guest Solo part on "Crave For New Colours" by my friend: Jan Dewald

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Caynug Germany

Picture a guy in a home music studio all alone going crazy with ideas and production
That's pretty much me
Caynug is a one man band consisting of me alone, it's my musical outlet.

I mash sounds, genres, I experiment, write, play, record, produce and engineer everything in caynug

This is music from the bottom of my heart, my grip on life, often the last safe place for my mind and I hope you enjoy
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